I'm standing all alone.

Lost on my own.

Knowing not which way to go,

Nor which thought is right.



I don't know who you are.

Maybe one of those I've scarred.

I'm sorry love,

I didn't mean to hurt you so.



Mayhaps I don't know you yet.

However I will not bet,

That I will find you

No matter what.



I've done so many hurtful things.

I have little self-esteem.

I try to be proud, not to be loud,

But how can the proud be humble?


I've lost a dear brother.

And then I gained another.

Is one more dear?

No, this I don't fear.


Has my god forsaken me?

I sorely wish I could tell.

Perhaps by Grace then,

I wouldn't so fear Hell.


Every time I search for you,

I lose a piece of myself.

I fear that if I find you,

I'll be too torn to tell.


I see her face everywhere I go.

Every time I look, my heart hurts so.

Is she you? How can I know?

Her face, her friendship lays me low.


She will not face me, I made her bleed.

She scorns me, shuns me for the deed.

Her hurting tears me, cuts me so.

Her crying, her bleeding, they hurt me so.


I feel so weak, so drained of will.

Something is missing. I know that.

Do I lack purpose? Cause? Drive?

What is not here? What do I need?


I sleep soundly night after night.

Yet something still drags at me.

I feel so tired though I sleep more than most.

This heaviness confuses me, my mind in a fog.


I fear her face, it follows me.

I care so deeply for her.

But everytime I see her face,

My heart quails deep within me.


My beautiful friend, dearest friend.

How can this happen to me?

What do I feel that scares me so?

Oh, how I wish to know.


I feel so lost, alone and afriad.

I don't want pity, I feel so ashamed.

Where will it end? Will it ever be right?

Jesus, dear Jesus! Lend me your light!